Sherri Gragg

Writer. Mom. Daydreamer. Dog's Best Friend.

God Help Me, Cause Sometimes… I Just Don’t Wanna Do Right…

Bathsheba had a hold on David. Some Biblical scholars insist her entrapment of the king was deliberate.  The houses in

Ruins of David's Palace, Jerusalem, Photo courtesy of Larry Mize

Ruins of David’s Palace, Jerusalem, Photo courtesy of Larry Mize

the ancient Middle East were very close together, so logic would support the theory that when Bathsheba drew the water for her bath, she was completely aware that she would be in full view of the king’s rooftop.  It is quite possible she had even noticed that he retired to the rooftop around the same time each day to take advantage of the evening breeze.

What we do know is this- David fell for Bathsheba in the worst sort of way.  His lust for her obliterated his plumb line of right and wrong.  It screamed so loudly that the man after God’s own heart couldn’t even hear God’s voice.  The addiction of Bathsheba shattered David’s reasoning capabilities as well, convincing him that he could scheme to cover his sin.

Then Nathan showed up at his door and jarred him back to reality.

“Then Nathan said to David, ‘You are the man!…” (2 Samuel 12:7)

“Then David said to Nathan, ‘I have sinned against the LORD.'” (2 Samuel 12:13)

The heartbreaking song of David’s repentance is found in Psalm 51.  As I was reading it again this morning, the latter half of verse 12 lingered hauntingly for me.

“…grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.” (Psalm 51:12b)

Don’t you feel David here?  How often have you fallen and fallen hard and in the aftermath found that though you are truly sorry, you need God to grant you a willing spirit to keep you from falling again?

I think the reason this verse is so powerful is that it is so true.  It is true not just in our moments of catastrophic failure but on those days when we feel strong, together…on top of the world.

Because on those days too, we are Adam’s children, redeemed from the fall.  Even when we are at our best, we need God to grant us a willing spirit to sustain us.




3 comments on “God Help Me, Cause Sometimes… I Just Don’t Wanna Do Right…

  1. snardfarkle
    April 28, 2014

    I have been here (Before Christ), and understand this prayer completely. And David didn’t HAVE to stand there and stare at Bathsheba. Like an old Rabbi said, you can’t stop the birds from flying over your head, but you CAN keep them from building a nest in your beard!

  2. snardfarkle
    April 28, 2014

    Reblogged this on David G. Perkins and commented:
    Another VERY WELL WRITTEN BLOG! THese nuggets are rich.

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